As time parts.. The pain in my heart is healing bit by bit.. Now I'm almost OK, i can make a conversation. But the pain still remains somewhere in the corner of my heart, reminding me of my sorrow..what else can i say, everything is back to normal, well almost normal.

I don't think i've told u what my sorrow is.the thing is, I think i was in love, for a moment in my life with a girl not related to me by family. This is how it happened...

When i first joined engineering, on my first day of my college.My father told me, that a cousin of mine whom i never met before, whose relation is soo long that i can't explain, is in my class. He told me her name and told me to friend her. Now how do u find a girl in ur class whom u've never seen before in the midst of strangers.

I followed the attendance call and paid attention to names called and who answered the call.that's the best i could think of on my first day of my college. Well i'm not a good listener, well most of the time, so at the end of the day, i narrowed down to two people.

For some reason i can't remember, i went to the coll office for some enquire. And one of the shortlisted candidate for the long relation-ed cousin was sitting in the waiter's seat to enter the principal's office. Thinking that she could be my cousin,i approached her and asked her,"are u h****ni?", she with a confused look(as expected) said,"no. I'm a****ni, that's the other girl". I just said yes and took my leave.she confused asked me,"why?". I didn't reply and just saying "OK OK" left the office.

This is how i first met her. She had a weird look. Her face was a moon on like a 4th or 5th day of wax on,curve...she weared cloths like a small nomad kashmiri frock is the best i could describe it. That's what impressed me. I'm a sucker for weird things. I just had to know her. But i was kind of a shy lad, so i could't just walk to her and say things. So i just kept a tab on her and acted normal.

She's a charming sunshine, always cheerful,always like a little girl.Every time she walked in to the room,it was just amazing..3yrs passed by just like that, and i never met her or talked to her directly. Always i was just someone in the class just observing her along with other girls. Just like every other guy in the class. Since i was like kept to myself kinda guy.

I never like objected to anything people say about me, i was like kinda don't care kinda guy, well i still am. Because of that, my so called friends, with whom i hang out, started teasing me with weird nickname like "silent killer, serial kisser,etc". But believe me i was never that kinda guy at that age. And there was a reason why they called me that. I tried to take a pic of a girl who was supposed to be my p.u friend who made it like a class beauty. Eventually she stopped talking to me.

So coming to the main scene.since i had that kinda image girls hesitated to talk to me, till the 4th yr. We started grouping for the final yr project, and i had few members short, the reason for this is the result was due and i didn't know that i would come to the 4th yr, with good luck and god's grace i made it to the final yr, but by the time results got out all the class members were grouped. Including the so called best friend who i usually hang out with. So i didn't get the option of choosing my group. I had to join any group who's short of members.Even she had grouped with others. But the people in my group were her friends with whom she usually talk to. So to be more social i had to tag along to my group people. This is when i talked to her for the second time, and to couple of other girls whom i never talked to my entire life, who were in my class. Since i joined the group i just jump into conversation with my group people, who were most of the time talking to her. That's how i came to knowing her. I usually write short stories,poems and other thing in a blog which which I've little or no talent. For a post in a new blog of mine i decided to write a short review of all the girls i had serious crush on. And she was one me them. Even after careful checking before posting, some how her street name with we all call her remained. I didn't know this and started suggesting to people i meet on the internet, whom by some reason happens to her on one fine day. After some time i just got a message from her asking whom it was based on. Me just like answering to any other fan questions replied as just a taught. She didn't believe it and text me,"pls say truthfully. Whom it it based on". I thinking tat it was just a tease, justified as an another one of my imagination.