I miss u...
I miss your voice as i ride the bus every day..
I miss wishing u on every other event..
I miss calling u, just to show how beautiful the sunset and how nice the moon is..
I try to forget but the things around me keeps reminding me how precious u are in my life..
I miss teasing u, i miss scolding u for silly mistakes u make.
I miss u every day...
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
When a girl get her heart broken, there are hundred boys ready to heal it.but when a boy gets his heart broken he's lonely for life, or just move on...
I just realized life goes on even without you.
But in some corner of my mind you are still there. It's not easy to remove memories, you can only mask it with a better one.Like i always thaught, the fastest way to destroy a ripple is to cause a bigger one.
I just realized life goes on even without you.
But in some corner of my mind you are still there. It's not easy to remove memories, you can only mask it with a better one.Like i always thaught, the fastest way to destroy a ripple is to cause a bigger one.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
As time parts.. The pain in my heart is healing bit by bit.. Now I'm almost OK, i can make a conversation. But the pain still remains somewhere in the corner of my heart, reminding me of my sorrow..what else can i say, everything is back to normal, well almost normal.
I don't think i've told u what my sorrow is.the thing is, I think i was in love, for a moment in my life with a girl not related to me by family. This is how it happened...
When i first joined engineering, on my first day of my college.My father told me, that a cousin of mine whom i never met before, whose relation is soo long that i can't explain, is in my class. He told me her name and told me to friend her. Now how do u find a girl in ur class whom u've never seen before in the midst of strangers.
I followed the attendance call and paid attention to names called and who answered the call.that's the best i could think of on my first day of my college. Well i'm not a good listener, well most of the time, so at the end of the day, i narrowed down to two people.
For some reason i can't remember, i went to the coll office for some enquire. And one of the shortlisted candidate for the long relation-ed cousin was sitting in the waiter's seat to enter the principal's office. Thinking that she could be my cousin,i approached her and asked her,"are u h****ni?", she with a confused look(as expected) said,"no. I'm a****ni, that's the other girl". I just said yes and took my leave.she confused asked me,"why?". I didn't reply and just saying "OK OK" left the office.
This is how i first met her. She had a weird look. Her face was a moon on like a 4th or 5th day of wax on,curve...she weared cloths like a small nomad kashmiri frock is the best i could describe it. That's what impressed me. I'm a sucker for weird things. I just had to know her. But i was kind of a shy lad, so i could't just walk to her and say things. So i just kept a tab on her and acted normal.
She's a charming sunshine, always cheerful,always like a little girl.Every time she walked in to the room,it was just amazing..3yrs passed by just like that, and i never met her or talked to her directly. Always i was just someone in the class just observing her along with other girls. Just like every other guy in the class. Since i was like kept to myself kinda guy.
I never like objected to anything people say about me, i was like kinda don't care kinda guy, well i still am. Because of that, my so called friends, with whom i hang out, started teasing me with weird nickname like "silent killer, serial kisser,etc". But believe me i was never that kinda guy at that age. And there was a reason why they called me that. I tried to take a pic of a girl who was supposed to be my p.u friend who made it like a class beauty. Eventually she stopped talking to me.
So coming to the main scene.since i had that kinda image girls hesitated to talk to me, till the 4th yr. We started grouping for the final yr project, and i had few members short, the reason for this is the result was due and i didn't know that i would come to the 4th yr, with good luck and god's grace i made it to the final yr, but by the time results got out all the class members were grouped. Including the so called best friend who i usually hang out with. So i didn't get the option of choosing my group. I had to join any group who's short of members.Even she had grouped with others. But the people in my group were her friends with whom she usually talk to. So to be more social i had to tag along to my group people. This is when i talked to her for the second time, and to couple of other girls whom i never talked to my entire life, who were in my class. Since i joined the group i just jump into conversation with my group people, who were most of the time talking to her. That's how i came to knowing her. I usually write short stories,poems and other thing in a blog which which I've little or no talent. For a post in a new blog of mine i decided to write a short review of all the girls i had serious crush on. And she was one me them. Even after careful checking before posting, some how her street name with we all call her remained. I didn't know this and started suggesting to people i meet on the internet, whom by some reason happens to her on one fine day. After some time i just got a message from her asking whom it was based on. Me just like answering to any other fan questions replied as just a taught. She didn't believe it and text me,"pls say truthfully. Whom it it based on". I thinking tat it was just a tease, justified as an another one of my imagination.
I don't think i've told u what my sorrow is.the thing is, I think i was in love, for a moment in my life with a girl not related to me by family. This is how it happened...
When i first joined engineering, on my first day of my college.My father told me, that a cousin of mine whom i never met before, whose relation is soo long that i can't explain, is in my class. He told me her name and told me to friend her. Now how do u find a girl in ur class whom u've never seen before in the midst of strangers.
I followed the attendance call and paid attention to names called and who answered the call.that's the best i could think of on my first day of my college. Well i'm not a good listener, well most of the time, so at the end of the day, i narrowed down to two people.
For some reason i can't remember, i went to the coll office for some enquire. And one of the shortlisted candidate for the long relation-ed cousin was sitting in the waiter's seat to enter the principal's office. Thinking that she could be my cousin,i approached her and asked her,"are u h****ni?", she with a confused look(as expected) said,"no. I'm a****ni, that's the other girl". I just said yes and took my leave.she confused asked me,"why?". I didn't reply and just saying "OK OK" left the office.
This is how i first met her. She had a weird look. Her face was a moon on like a 4th or 5th day of wax on,curve...she weared cloths like a small nomad kashmiri frock is the best i could describe it. That's what impressed me. I'm a sucker for weird things. I just had to know her. But i was kind of a shy lad, so i could't just walk to her and say things. So i just kept a tab on her and acted normal.
She's a charming sunshine, always cheerful,always like a little girl.Every time she walked in to the room,it was just amazing..3yrs passed by just like that, and i never met her or talked to her directly. Always i was just someone in the class just observing her along with other girls. Just like every other guy in the class. Since i was like kept to myself kinda guy.
I never like objected to anything people say about me, i was like kinda don't care kinda guy, well i still am. Because of that, my so called friends, with whom i hang out, started teasing me with weird nickname like "silent killer, serial kisser,etc". But believe me i was never that kinda guy at that age. And there was a reason why they called me that. I tried to take a pic of a girl who was supposed to be my p.u friend who made it like a class beauty. Eventually she stopped talking to me.
So coming to the main scene.since i had that kinda image girls hesitated to talk to me, till the 4th yr. We started grouping for the final yr project, and i had few members short, the reason for this is the result was due and i didn't know that i would come to the 4th yr, with good luck and god's grace i made it to the final yr, but by the time results got out all the class members were grouped. Including the so called best friend who i usually hang out with. So i didn't get the option of choosing my group. I had to join any group who's short of members.Even she had grouped with others. But the people in my group were her friends with whom she usually talk to. So to be more social i had to tag along to my group people. This is when i talked to her for the second time, and to couple of other girls whom i never talked to my entire life, who were in my class. Since i joined the group i just jump into conversation with my group people, who were most of the time talking to her. That's how i came to knowing her. I usually write short stories,poems and other thing in a blog which which I've little or no talent. For a post in a new blog of mine i decided to write a short review of all the girls i had serious crush on. And she was one me them. Even after careful checking before posting, some how her street name with we all call her remained. I didn't know this and started suggesting to people i meet on the internet, whom by some reason happens to her on one fine day. After some time i just got a message from her asking whom it was based on. Me just like answering to any other fan questions replied as just a taught. She didn't believe it and text me,"pls say truthfully. Whom it it based on". I thinking tat it was just a tease, justified as an another one of my imagination.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
The time has come. The time to tell my deep feelings, which is aceing my heart and troubling my mind. I'm running now. Running from what was never mine to begin with. Running from myself who was tricked. Running from hope, which hurt me a lot. The life is in a new perspective but we can't hide from our past. Out of all the things, some things just can't be forgotten easily..
Friday, January 6, 2012
My Spiritual theory
The whole universe is made up of spiritual particles.
the spiritual particles condense to form one god. This god
splits up into three particles, to form three supreme entity.
It's been said that, at the end of time, all the fragments of the
gods will become one true entity and disappear for further evolution.
We all are part of the god we know to worship.Even the atheists
are a fragment of the great spiritual one, Coz the life without
origin is only thing that doesn't end,everything else will and should end.
Theory Of spirits:
The spirits are a mass of spiritual particles condensed to form an entity,
The entity will eventually disintegrate and absorbed into living things
like us.The unstable condense spiritual beings which do not have
bodies and mimic the composition of the great one, is called angels/gods.
Theory of Life:
all living beings/creature is a spirit enclosed in a mortal body. The
body makes sure that the spirit doesn't escape in to the environment.
The spirit enter into a body and control it to be who we are. The
spirits adapt to our body from birth and make sure the body is a tool
for what we want to do.
Color of life:
All living souls have a color which represent them,A soul can't
change their color when they are in a body.When the soul leaves
the body, it becomes the white/light and get absorbed into the objects
around them.The wind/air, fire,water,earth all contain spirit particle
the color of light/white.
Spirits Nature:
Spirits support each other, as long as you treat them with respect and care
and dignity they are. Spirits help each other when they are around you to
support life(kind of one of the deals). The spirits maintain the balance
of nature.So that's why people don't die when they die, their spirit becomes
part of the nature.
Spirit has a tendency to react to your heart.Like the laws of the winds,and
laws of the magnetic poles. Spirits flow from one place/point to another.
Some times in the winds or any other element of the nature.That's why
you feel energized,refreshed when you do something you feel is right, or
get depressed when you do something which you feel is wrong.
You can ask them to help you, if you truly believe and treat them with
respect.
the spiritual particles condense to form one god. This god
splits up into three particles, to form three supreme entity.
It's been said that, at the end of time, all the fragments of the
gods will become one true entity and disappear for further evolution.
We all are part of the god we know to worship.Even the atheists
are a fragment of the great spiritual one, Coz the life without
origin is only thing that doesn't end,everything else will and should end.
Theory Of spirits:
The spirits are a mass of spiritual particles condensed to form an entity,
The entity will eventually disintegrate and absorbed into living things
like us.The unstable condense spiritual beings which do not have
bodies and mimic the composition of the great one, is called angels/gods.
Theory of Life:
all living beings/creature is a spirit enclosed in a mortal body. The
body makes sure that the spirit doesn't escape in to the environment.
The spirit enter into a body and control it to be who we are. The
spirits adapt to our body from birth and make sure the body is a tool
for what we want to do.
Color of life:
All living souls have a color which represent them,A soul can't
change their color when they are in a body.When the soul leaves
the body, it becomes the white/light and get absorbed into the objects
around them.The wind/air, fire,water,earth all contain spirit particle
the color of light/white.
Spirits Nature:
Spirits support each other, as long as you treat them with respect and care
and dignity they are. Spirits help each other when they are around you to
support life(kind of one of the deals). The spirits maintain the balance
of nature.So that's why people don't die when they die, their spirit becomes
part of the nature.
Spirit has a tendency to react to your heart.Like the laws of the winds,and
laws of the magnetic poles. Spirits flow from one place/point to another.
Some times in the winds or any other element of the nature.That's why
you feel energized,refreshed when you do something you feel is right, or
get depressed when you do something which you feel is wrong.
You can ask them to help you, if you truly believe and treat them with
respect.
Friday, November 18, 2011
page 3
Next morning. The usual work.the day after the same, the same.The tings were going as usual, well of-couse i was busy setting up the office to notice anything.It was kind two weeks or twenty days or so. When i saw her again. This time She was passing by my office,around the same time when i was about to leave.She walked infrount of me, i started following her just to see how far r we on the same route.She moved from one road to another, in the same route which lead to my apartment.
After about 10min walk, i reached my apartment, and i decided i end my pursuit. As i stared out of my window. The girl sat in one of the benches on the river bank and opened the book.I taught it was time i went and talked to her, so i grabbed a juice pack and went down there to talk to her.I was still pretty taken back to approach an
unknown girl, if she wasn't alone i probably wouldn't have went down. When i approached the bench, she was busy thinking something to notice me, and tears was dripping down her chin, through i probably didn't notice it from the window. I quickly asked her,'are you ok?',distracting her from her thinking.She quickly wiped her tears and said,'si'. i asked 'here wanna have some juice?','no thanks'. i sat next to her and said 'is this seat also reserved, shall i move!'. She gazed at me with that sad look.'We met in the coffee bar the other day, i saw u from my apartment sitting alone, so came to say hi'. She didn't speak a word. i asked her again,'are you ok?',She quickly closed her book and went off without saying a word.'hey... hey..',She didn't reply. So sat on the bench looking at the sunset, finished my juice and went back.
The next day,i went to the office a little bit early, so as to meet her at the usual coffee shop where i met her the first time.As soon as i walked near the coffee shop, she left.It was just 10min early you know. Remensing of my bad luck, i taught i'll just leave her alone. Besides who was i to her anyway.
After about 10min walk, i reached my apartment, and i decided i end my pursuit. As i stared out of my window. The girl sat in one of the benches on the river bank and opened the book.I taught it was time i went and talked to her, so i grabbed a juice pack and went down there to talk to her.I was still pretty taken back to approach an
unknown girl, if she wasn't alone i probably wouldn't have went down. When i approached the bench, she was busy thinking something to notice me, and tears was dripping down her chin, through i probably didn't notice it from the window. I quickly asked her,'are you ok?',distracting her from her thinking.She quickly wiped her tears and said,'si'. i asked 'here wanna have some juice?','no thanks'. i sat next to her and said 'is this seat also reserved, shall i move!'. She gazed at me with that sad look.'We met in the coffee bar the other day, i saw u from my apartment sitting alone, so came to say hi'. She didn't speak a word. i asked her again,'are you ok?',She quickly closed her book and went off without saying a word.'hey... hey..',She didn't reply. So sat on the bench looking at the sunset, finished my juice and went back.
The next day,i went to the office a little bit early, so as to meet her at the usual coffee shop where i met her the first time.As soon as i walked near the coffee shop, she left.It was just 10min early you know. Remensing of my bad luck, i taught i'll just leave her alone. Besides who was i to her anyway.
Monday, November 7, 2011
SAMURAI OF THE WINDS- PART1
you jumped in to save me.. but you don't have enough power to save me boy.
boy-'i'll protect everyone. i won't let anyone die infrount of me'
The man kills of the bandits. man- where are you going boy?. boy-'to sanzuian mountain to train swordsmen ship in the dojo there'. man-'it takes around 6 months to get to the sanzuian hills and i heard the dojos there are quite expensive. You must be rich, be careful of the bandits on the way'. boy-'no. i'm not rich. I'll do whatever it takes to become strong and protect my family and people close to me'. man-'i know swordsmen ship besides i'm quite a master my self. If you accompany me to the sanzuian hills, i'll teach you a technique or two. what do u say boy. will you learn from me?'. boy-'will you teach me! but i don't have any money. like you said the dojos are costly, will u teach me for free!!.'man-'yes'.boy-' then i'll learn. please teach me.i wanna become strong and protect people close to me. please teach me'.man-' ok, but lets get out of here for now, if someone sees us with the bodies, we might get into trouble'.
next day...
The technique i'm going to teach you is like a double edge sword. it used improperly could kill the user itself. This technique is the strongest and most dangerous technique, it can kill any number of people in one strike no matter how many hostages, if mastered in advance level. but also can kill you if you make a slightest mistake in using it. Since this technique is so powerful, many people will come to challenge it, and using it in the public without proper mastering is also dangerous, not only to the people around you but also to yourself. hence you have to promise me never to use my technique without my permission. Do you agree?. And before i could begin to teach you, you need to accept me as your master and believe in my teaching methods, or else you will not learn anything no matter how i teach. So do you agree?.
boy-' yes. When will you start?'
boy-'i'll protect everyone. i won't let anyone die infrount of me'
The man kills of the bandits. man- where are you going boy?. boy-'to sanzuian mountain to train swordsmen ship in the dojo there'. man-'it takes around 6 months to get to the sanzuian hills and i heard the dojos there are quite expensive. You must be rich, be careful of the bandits on the way'. boy-'no. i'm not rich. I'll do whatever it takes to become strong and protect my family and people close to me'. man-'i know swordsmen ship besides i'm quite a master my self. If you accompany me to the sanzuian hills, i'll teach you a technique or two. what do u say boy. will you learn from me?'. boy-'will you teach me! but i don't have any money. like you said the dojos are costly, will u teach me for free!!.'man-'yes'.boy-' then i'll learn. please teach me.i wanna become strong and protect people close to me. please teach me'.man-' ok, but lets get out of here for now, if someone sees us with the bodies, we might get into trouble'.
next day...
The technique i'm going to teach you is like a double edge sword. it used improperly could kill the user itself. This technique is the strongest and most dangerous technique, it can kill any number of people in one strike no matter how many hostages, if mastered in advance level. but also can kill you if you make a slightest mistake in using it. Since this technique is so powerful, many people will come to challenge it, and using it in the public without proper mastering is also dangerous, not only to the people around you but also to yourself. hence you have to promise me never to use my technique without my permission. Do you agree?. And before i could begin to teach you, you need to accept me as your master and believe in my teaching methods, or else you will not learn anything no matter how i teach. So do you agree?.
boy-' yes. When will you start?'
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